Define TRUE LOVE. Anyone?

Not me for sure.

LOVE. Maybe. TRUE LOVE. Never.

There’s this saying that when you find your true love, it will stay forever and never fade away. This is something, in which, I’m still in a pursuit of it. Everyone is, I think.

I was talking with Ben, one of my close friends. We were discussing some flaws of my failed relationships. And we both came to a point of realisation that TRUE LOVE can never be demanded, just as in respect, you earn it.

It comes only at a time where each other accepts the others flaws, and really accept the person for being him/her. I suffered a lot of failures in relationship, because I always demand.

It’s those little imperfection that makes one another, looks perfect to you.

‘Maybe we are just too demanding of one another,’ he said.

‘I have always wanted more,’ Me.

I always expect more. And that’s perhaps the biggest reason on why we didn’t work out. I made mistakes, mistakes that could never be forgiven. But these are the mistakes that group together to make me a better man, a stronger one perhaps. These are the mistakes that teach me lessons that could never be gained in class, that could not be experienced through words.

I don’t believe in white prince comes and saves you from your mess and lives happily ever after. There’s no such thing as success without failures. It always comes after it.

I was depressed the whole day. Thinking and reflecting the past events. Read her blog.  I’ve wondered where I got the courage to admit my fault in how everything unfolded. My blood stains are on everywhere and it shall never vanish. I have destroyed a fragile girl feelings by my own hands. Pierced her heart with an invisible knife times and times again.

We all learn from mistakes. And it’s the way to walk our life towards perfection.

And though in my way towards perfection, I have offended a lot of person and will continue to do so. I just hope that someday when I look back , these are the people that will guide me back to the route that I have chosen.

A sincere apology to everyone that I have offended, hurt, you are small pieces of puzzles that will complete my life mission into making me a better man.

I feel relieved expressing everything out now. =)

So define TRUE LOVE? Anyone?